Then and now: The Two Towers. (I'd personally prefer 'The Return of the King')

I'm here. Now what? 

It is an adventure - as trivial as that. The most important thing is to not look back. Don't walk back in your footsteps. Say 'thank you' and have amazing memories, but never compare present to past. I guess it is like that with everything, not just moving to another country and whatnot. 

I am conscious of the fact that I stand out like a sore thumb here. Or, perhaps, I'm simply paranoid.

My jokes have left me and, instead of it being a sad state of affairs, it is funny in itself. It is a tragicomedy and it is intrinsic to these kinds of changes - changes that supposedly have nothing tragic about them, but they come along with a lot of melodrama. 

However, it doesn't mean that the emotions and words uttered at the time are not genuine. 

Retrospect is a cynical bitch. Don't listen to it. 'Now' is your bestie. 

***

Once you open up and dare to stop trying to be a perfectly balanced and reasonable human being, life becomes simple (as awkward as this sentence is, it is exactly what I wanted to say). 

So, now I sit here with my ego and we're both eating icecream, and then it will go and hang out somewhere else and leave me alone for a while. And it is a good state of affairs. Balance is not control; it is knowing that wherever you are, you are your own moral compass, or rather - safe place.

Yada yada yada.

I googled what 'yada' means. Go for it.

***

I will go and get a job now. 

Maybe eat another carrot. 

And then think about whether I should start collecting plastic bags. Like mums do. Maybe that is 'why mums go to Iceland'? You see, no one will get this 'joke' here, back in Latvia. It doesn't matter that it is not funny, at least it could have been understood and not laughed at. There is some comfort in it. 

Moving country plus lunar eclipse, plus it being a Monday is a mix equivalent to a Long Island Iced Tea; you are lucky that vomit is not involved (but I think I got that on credit yesterday when that child on the train vomited on my bag). 

I only added this photo of a world map because someone has put a sticker on Russia that resembles a 'wife-beater'. 

Farewell.