Elbows.

You know you're a grown-up when you start to moisturise your elbows.

Then and now: The Two Towers. (I'd personally prefer 'The Return of the King')

I'm here. Now what? 

It is an adventure - as trivial as that. The most important thing is to not look back. Don't walk back in your footsteps. Say 'thank you' and have amazing memories, but never compare present to past. I guess it is like that with everything, not just moving to another country and whatnot. 

I am conscious of the fact that I stand out like a sore thumb here. Or, perhaps, I'm simply paranoid.

My jokes have left me and, instead of it being a sad state of affairs, it is funny in itself. It is a tragicomedy and it is intrinsic to these kinds of changes - changes that supposedly have nothing tragic about them, but they come along with a lot of melodrama. 

However, it doesn't mean that the emotions and words uttered at the time are not genuine. 

Retrospect is a cynical bitch. Don't listen to it. 'Now' is your bestie. 

***

Once you open up and dare to stop trying to be a perfectly balanced and reasonable human being, life becomes simple (as awkward as this sentence is, it is exactly what I wanted to say). 

So, now I sit here with my ego and we're both eating icecream, and then it will go and hang out somewhere else and leave me alone for a while. And it is a good state of affairs. Balance is not control; it is knowing that wherever you are, you are your own moral compass, or rather - safe place.

Yada yada yada.

I googled what 'yada' means. Go for it.

***

I will go and get a job now. 

Maybe eat another carrot. 

And then think about whether I should start collecting plastic bags. Like mums do. Maybe that is 'why mums go to Iceland'? You see, no one will get this 'joke' here, back in Latvia. It doesn't matter that it is not funny, at least it could have been understood and not laughed at. There is some comfort in it. 

Moving country plus lunar eclipse, plus it being a Monday is a mix equivalent to a Long Island Iced Tea; you are lucky that vomit is not involved (but I think I got that on credit yesterday when that child on the train vomited on my bag). 

I only added this photo of a world map because someone has put a sticker on Russia that resembles a 'wife-beater'. 

Farewell.

Skaidri un gaiši - par bēgļiem un mēdijiem.

Lai izvairītos no gara Facebook ieraksta, vēlos izteikties uz šīs platformas. 

Daļai cilvēku patīk ģeneralizēt noteiktas rakstura īpašības un uzvedību un piešķirt tās noteiktām ādas krāsām, seksuālām orientācijām un nacionalitātēm. Tas viss, protams, lai saliktu sev apkārtējo pasauli glīti plauktiņos, tā segregējot cilvēkus - 'viņi' un 'mēs'. Mēdiji to ļoti labi prot propogandēt.

Diskriminācija un rasisms kā termini, šķiet, ka tikai var tikt lietoti, ja apvainotais ir 'labs' cilvēks, priekšzīmīgs cilvēks, kluss cilvēks, kurš, galvu nodūris, aiz pateicības būs gatavs ceļos krist. 'Vot' tas cilvēks tad laikam ir 'nopelnījis' Tavu viedo, paštaisno, palīdzīgo roku. Tikko kaut viens no 'viņiem' (kā mums tīk domāt) uzvedās 'ne tā', tad visi tiek grūsti tajā paša bedrē - 'paskaties, kā šie tur visu apspēra, izārdīja, mežoņi! Mums tādus nevajag.' 

Visur ir pa nelietim, bet, ja norakstīsim tam apkārtesošos cilvēkus, tad sasniegsim paštaisnuma un nenovīdības kalngalus.

Kamēr neesam pazinuši īstas bailes un izmisumu, varbūt ir vērts pārdomāt lietas. 

Un es droši varu teikt, ka neapskaužu bēgļa iPhone 6, jo mana ģimene ir drošībā un mani kaimiņi nemirst pa labi un pa kreisi. Man arī nav jāpaļaujas uz labdarību un jāraizējas, ka mani sūtīs atpakaļ uz vietu, kur, pilnīgi iespējams, esmu nolemta drīzai nāvei. 

Ja arguments ir 'vispirms parūpējamies par saviem', tad, labi - parūpējies 'par saviem' vismaz,...līdz šim gan neesmu redzējusi no lielajām balamutēm lielu atsaucību palīdzēšanā kaimiņiem, ziedošanā vai iesaistīšanos projektos. 

Cilvēki, kuriem patiešām ir grūti, nesūdzas - viņi cenšas izdzīvot.

Un, pirms zākājam savu valsti, atceramies, ka tie, kas darbojas politikā, arī nāk no mūsu pašu vidus. Ja, kaut kas neapmierina - ej, darbojies un maini lietas, nevis pasīvi-agresīvi sūksties. Mums vismaz ir brīvība. Nenovērtē to par zemu. 

Ja vēlies būt 'labs' (šis koncepts gan ir relatīvs un mulsinošs), tad nešķiro cilvēkus, negaidi neko pretī un esi pateicīgs, ka esi 'palīdzētāja' lomā, nevis lūdzēja.

 

Viss sākas ar attieksmi.

Sprīdītis un brīnumdaris

Pasauli neredzējis, mājas nenovērtēsi; arī pasauli nesapratīsi. Un kas tad ir 'pasaule'? 'Pa-saule' - tepat, jebkur 'zem' saules. Es esmu. 

Aj, kā man patīk mācīties.

Katru dienu un priecāties par to,

ko Tu man nes -

tāda mana iekšējā projekcija vien esi. 

Un, kad piktojies, es saprotu, 

kāpēc to dari, 

un vairs nesāp.

Brīnumdaris Tu esi un es arī.

Over-soul

You're not one person; there is no set form and frame you have to shape yourself into. What you think of yourself is what you make yourself to be. 

By tapping into the Emersonian over-soul you access all the information of everything and everyone, of all the matter - why limit yourself by adhering to long established inter-subjective realities? It's the collective ego that makes people recite the same things over and over again attributing their views to objectivity. There is no such thing.

I like the theory that every thing and every living being contains the information of the whole universe. Every particle possesses the consciousness of the whole. 

By separating mind and matter and time we make sense of what seems so overwhelming, but we also keep ourselves from ever fully connecting with our surroundings. For we are our surroundings.

And no, I haven't watched Matrix again recently. 

Basically I just recycled some stuff that I like to read and that I believe in. Without references. 'Cuz I'm not in uni anymore and I feel rebellious.

So, in short, I like Emerson, Osho and Bohm, and Pribram, and Talbot. The right information always finds you. 

Good day, peeps! You scallywags. 

In a relationship with Bane

This morning I was talking to Katrina about the new Mad Max and how...attractive Tom Hardy is. We eventually got to discussing Bane. Katrina said that they didn't do a good job dubbing him because she found it hard to understand what he was saying. I said I wasn't listening when he was speaking..., because I was busy imagining how it would be being in a relationship with Bane.

As you do. 

So here we are. 

-'Why do you never cook for me?'

-'Well, you never cook for me either. I can't eat. I have to get my nutrition intravenously [I imagine]. End of topic.' 

-'You do realise there will be no kissing. Any kind of kissing.' 

-'Why don't we spend more time together?'

-'Batman always comes first. You knew that before we got together, honey.'

-'...speaking of coming -'

Well, no thank you. 

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Love is wild

Osho said that love is wild and you have to let it destroy you and recreate you over and over again. 

Lukewarm tea is also the worst. 

But passion and love are not the same. And that is where it goes awry. And that is why we only scratch the surface. Besides other things... Ey. 

Mondays are good if you stop whining about them. 

Remember to have a good day

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